During discussion of "Motto to 'The Poet'"

My ENG 477 (American Poetry) professor, in an exchange about a poem by Ralph Waldo Emerson.

"Well, that's exactly what 'love at first sight' means: laser eyebeams."

I feel enlightened. I think.

soTHISis odd:

he couldn't plan if his life depended on it

"Some of that is probably because he's a man."

he also just lost his car because he put off getting an oil change for 3 years

"That's pretty bad. I mean, I take kind of crappy care of my car. But... that's bad."

i can't even bring the topic up, he just dismisses it as "too far away"

"'Too far away?'"

yes.

he always says, "don't worry about it now"

"That could mean a lot of things. But yeah, I don't know."

well, what could it mean?

"It could mean he doesn't want to talk about it. It could be a sign of apathy. It could be a sign of detachment. It could actually mean that there's simply nothing to be done right now. So I dunno."

exhale.

English

Oh, English -- how could I forget how much I love you?

Why didn't I think about how much easier it is to grasp the content and construct of language?

Ah, but I've found you again. Forget biology.

College is cake.

airport aura

"&Airports see it all the time.

Where someone's last goodbye blends in with someone's sign

'cause someone's coming home: in hand a single rose..."

I feel that I've taken you for granted these past three weeks. Now, sitting quietly alone at gate 23 at the Calgary Airport, I can already feel my chest tightening at your absence. I miss you, love.

How utterly selfish must I be to not be overwhelmingly thankful for every second with you, no matter what we're doing? How inconsiderate must I be to be angry with you and waste such precious time? I disgust myself.

Another six months without you.

I can't even fathom it -- and yet, I have to.

But it's just too many days without you.

i can't bear the sound of your silence

Sigh.

why do you turn from me, love?