Myoo-sik Rev-yoo

So I'm not sure how I feel about "Not Good Enough (for Truth in Cliché)," one of the free mp3 downloads I just snagged from Last.fm. It's an old single (~2006?) by Escape the Fate and, quite frankly, if no one told me that I wouldn't have guessed.

I adore their latest album, This War Is Ours, completely, and not just because their leading single featured Josh Todd. Honest! (but FUCK, he's so hot.) I just love the lyrics and overall energy of the album -- I haven't seen it myself since I was out of the country when the Vegas boys were in Portland (waaaaah), but I hear Craig Mabbitt's stage performance is just as exciting.

At the moment, I've got "We Won't Back Down" going on iTunes; they're really almost a whole new band. I mean, I guess that's what happens when your band makes a pit stop in DramaVille and you lose your lead singer and a guitarist. I sort of feel that if you're getting a whole new songwriter, you're getting a whole new band. But hey! That's just me. I'm sure they just kept their name to hold onto their fan base.

Anyway, back to the single -- I'm going to have to give it a thumbs down. They sound pretty generic, and if this was the first ETF track I heard I definitely wouldn't have followed up. The lyrics aren't bad; they're a bit emo for my tastes, but they're not bad. I think Craig's vocals mesh with their sound really well.

So, sorry Ronnie! I think my expectations were just too high from the new Escape the Fate.

" i just want the term to be over so i can come visit you! "

" i just want it to be over because it's so long. "

hmm.

neurotic to the bone, no doubt about it

Officially, I have only been diagnosed with clinical depression and anorexia nervosa. I'm on and off medication for anxiety and am "slightly" obsessive compulsive.

None of this is new. I've come to terms with the fact that I'm pretty fucked up in the head years ago.

But that has yet to keep me from pursuing causation and further biological explanations.

Incredibly recently, I found myself curled up in a chair with some article on some psychological disorders -- while having a panic attack. It dawned on me then how utterly ridiculous it was to be so tied up in finding out why this was happening to me that I neglected to pull myself out of the hole.

And I do this all the time. I have a suspicion that is one of the core reasons I decided to major in biology. Just yesterday I listened to someone who has done a lot of research on Filipino American psychology. Instantly it became necessary for me to learn more about my heritage.

I read once that in order for anything to actually get done you must focus on the solution, not the problem. It's completely opposite of my instinct, but has almost always proven to be much more beneficial.

Hm.

improvement

Two more months. Back in school, taking a much lighter load of 16 credits and no labs. Looking into changing major. Another year after this one to graduate.

Things are fine, somewhat steady I suppose. Can't complain.

More another time, maybe.